Sunday, November 24, 2013

Chemo Instruction Manual







Control side effects
              smoothly
                        (That’s a lie!)
Destroy what
divides rapidly
blood
mucous
mouth
throat
stomach
roots of hair

“Who shall say I am not
the happy genius of my household?”
dancing  
head in toilet.

                                 WARNING:  You are overdrawn
                                                Whose fucking fault is that?
                                                            Your account is, your account, you’re --
                                                                        Speak plainly or key in
                                                                                          Blab 
Someone makes tea.
The sun goes down.
Don’t cook
the odor 


My swaddled head is warm
            Your fingers
                        oddly, and
for the time being
 I don’t mind

Thursday, November 7, 2013

                                                                 Sticking by and to



sticking                       Sticking by and to and through.  There’s a grape jelly taste to it.
there's                        Didn’t you come to me for just this and didn’t it disappoint you?
didn't
didn't 

 is                                Is you is or is you ain’t my _____?  Drowsing in my sheets.      
drowsing                    Rub right there.  Got it - Got to.    
rub                              Skimmed over skimmed off skimmed your cream dream.             
got                              
skimmed 

held                             You will be held, Melted MaltedAfford --  let fall.
melted, 
let fall 

break                     Break eggs -- rules -- off -- in -- over me.  We -- she -- he -- that once
was                        was before, no more.
before 

could tell               No one - no one but you - every one - how you - would if you could tell.
Was                       I was, not you.  Take care-over-heart-me-it like a man-everything.
Take                     Spiders-freckles-leaf veins-slights-failures-moons-Mars magnified.
Magnified 

appear                  Fears memories you and I intentions this moment appear disappear
disappear             Your slip my age amerika’s x-rayed racism is showing.
showing                For keeps the cat eye marbles. I wonder what keeps you?  
keeps
keeps 

feel                       My father’s fierce embrace.  Sway, Willow.  Bend and let the
sway                     torrent pass.
bend. 

keep hearing        Keep hearing rumbling silence. 
coming in.             Some thing is coming in a train, a disease, a vision.
rumbling

have had               Everything we had we have had but have not.       
Picking                 Saw bare the world’s ankles singing a picking song.

am                         I am come but not alone.
Desired                Shall we now surrender what hope most desired?

were                     None are what they were but that’s cold _______.
Touch                   Only touch.
Cherish                Learning to cherish takes _______.     
lift                        Hopes memories friendships ______ beauty lift and let fall.     
let fall                        

struck                  Well struck, expertly so the victims were not _______bruised.
bruised                 Fevers footballs heels _______ and heads spiked.
spiked 

Went                   We went willingly.  “See” is an invitation not a _______. 
see                       Before the whole eco-system is ______.
is
gone 

say                       Say your piece;  it’s your ____.  How will you describe?
it's                       Night ____ coming.  I pray you will sleep without ______.
describe
coming
sleep.




LFM 11/6/13

I hope you enjoyed interacting with me through this poem.

In the above, I began with a poem I like by Robert Frost, "After Apple Picking."  I removed all the words except verbs.  I used the verbs as a kind of random acrostic for creating sentences.  In a developing order I wrote sentences and sentence fragments that I think encourage and involve the reader more and more as the poem progresses.  So, from the early stanzas there are multiple associations spelled out.  As the poem progresses, the reader is encouraged to make more and more of his/her own associations.  In the end the reader is encouraged to add his or her own words and play with possibilities that carry associations for that reader.  

There is a kind of general theme of relationships and communication for the whole similar to Silliman's "rock pile."

The process was one of progressing experimentation for me as a poet as well.  I became more free with open spaces and left more room for the reader to determine the content.  I tried to shape the thought in certain ways and to arrive at a positive but open conclusion, one that left a question for the reader to answer in his/her own way.   I gave my self increasing permission to change the constraints I was working with.  So by the time the reader makes his or her way through to the end, their brain has hopefully been through an exercise of dealing with changing rules and increasing involvement. 

I was as many people have said, "play." I thoroughly enjoyed it.  

Saturday, June 22, 2013

I Don't Read a Novel




I open the book
Black worms swim in a white pool
I close the book

I open the book
Red stains spread  on a white tablecloth
I close the book

I open the book
A child’s blue footprint is disappearing in the drifting snow
I close the book


LFM

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

I Dreamed of Nothing



Finally
I dreamed of nothing
But earlier in the evening it was all trouble and
Resentment, rehashing disappointments
Though I cannot say that I am over it
There is something in me that
Loves more and still and
So will make this sleep
A seedbed out
Of the wind
Well watered
And  see
what
grows.

LFM

Good at Last



Good at Last


Late in the day
I realize I’ve actually
been watching for you all day
and you’re not coming

Bent into prayer position
planting where dandelions
with some effort were extracted
my hands and back are just plain tired.

It takes a surprising amount of
strength and perseverance
to untie
the knots such work ties

and if you add to that unconscious
efforts to keep head and spirits up  
you get hot pain served with
a side of cold denial

How good at last
to stand erect and stare down
passing clouds without pretending
they resemble anything


LFM 6/4/2013

American Post-High Education



American Post-High Education


After work
Juan’s eager to head home
(he is young has a wife)
so we make sure his Dodge is pinned in

Everyone is talking baseball
when a storm of
cottonwood  (who knows how far those
immigrants come) gets
everybody quiet.

“Well, okay you guys” I say to fill up 
a silence as big as
the gym where we
played ball and danced
 
“Okay” they say
moving toward
the doors to
Morrison’s “Gloria”

It’s cool because
it’s never too late
to catch some
young girl’s eye.

Walking the parking lot
I say to no one
“The size of the setting sun
is an illusion

created by the
dust of the earth
and the curvature
of its spine.”

In the truck
I wonder if the one
you chose to drive you home
ever even fingered an original equipment
dashboard choke.

LFM 6/4/13